Ultrasound Update

I am finally updating since the ultrasound that we had on Thursday. It's been a pretty emotionally hard weekend where I haven't wanted to do too much.

The specialist came in right after the ultrasound, already having looked at the ultrasound photos, and gave us news that we basically already knew, just had hoped to hear differently. Arrayah's kidneys are the size of a 5 month old baby's. The take up her entire abdomen and are way too full of cysts to do anything. He said that there was no way to save her, so if she is born alive, they will just pass her into our arms instead of trying to keep her alive. That, I believe would be the hardest thing since she would suffocate since her lungs can't develop.

I guess the only good news that we got out of the consultation is that he believes the disease she has is not genetic, meaning that we most likely don't have to worry about anymore of our babies having this disease. After she is born, we will most likely have an analysis done on her kidneys to make sure, though.

And, we also learned that the cord is wrapped around her neck. So, it just seems like everything is out to get our little lady. I guess, at this moment, I'm not optimistic. Maybe I'll regain some hope in a day or week, but right now, it's just really hard to hope that she will make it, ya know? We'll see what happens. Thanks for thinking of us.