A Goodbye

I'm not sure how to even start this post. I don't know what to say or how to say it. There is so much to say, and yet it's so difficult to come up with the words to express, really, anything.

Ja's momma passed away on the 29th of April. We were, thankfully, all with her when she passed. That in itself is a wonder. We have been visiting his folks every weekend and the week before, the week of the 22nd, I had taken the girls home with me for a few days to get ready for my sister's baby shower that my mom and sister and I were throwing for her. Ja had stayed with his sister at their parents house helping take care of their mom. The shower was on the 28th. I had gone back to central Oregon for a few days before the shower, and came back the day of since the shower was in the evening. Ja had stayed behind saying that he would come home Monday morning with our brother-in-law. When Monday morning rolled around, Ja called and asked if I would come pick him up. Both him and my brother-in-law woke up feeling like they should stay there a while that day. But, since Ja had missed already a week of school, stress was starting to sink in, and he was worrying about missing another few days. So, it was planned that I would make the trek over and then back in one day.

The girls do a wonderful job in the car, considering their ages. But, the ride is really long for a three year old and a one year old.Especially, two longs trips in one day without much of a break. I left the girls with my mom and headed over. I fully intended to pick Ja up and head straight back. But, when I got there, we didn't head back right away. Ja wasn't packed up. So, we hung around for a bit. Just an couple hours later, his momma started showing signs of her last moments.

We were able to sing hymns, pray and hold hands during her last few breaths. It was so special. Something that I will never forget. I am so happy that we were there. It was wonderful that the girls were with my parents. I was able to stay by her side without worrying about taking care of the babies. And, I think probably better that Sahara had said goodbye the day before, rather than be there and take everything in.

It is so strange that one moment she was here and the next she is in the Lord's company. Sick one moment, the next, in Glory.

It is so reassuring to know she is with our Saviour. To know that she is finally meeting Jesus. Crazy to think that she is meeting the godly men and women we read about in the Bible. And, she is meeting our baby. Seeing her again. Talking with her. Playing with her. Covering her in kisses. In a way, I am just a teensy tiny bit jealous.

We have a service coming up and with so many people praying for us, I feel like we have an incredible peace surrounding us. What an amazing God we serve. I am so thankful to Him for paying the price so that we have hope. Hope to see our loved ones again. Hope in an eternity spent with Him.