Just Thinking

As I was changing Isla tonight, I started thinking just how strange it is that I know her cries. I know which cry means she is hungry, which one means she's tired, which one means she just wants to be cuddled, etc... And, I'm the only one that knows. (To Ja, every cry means one thing. Hungry. I guess most guys think that way. But, he also has conditioned Sahara to think that way since every time Isla cries, Sahara tells me that she's hungry!) And, it's amazing to think that this tiny little baby grew inside of me. I mean, brain developing, growing, blinking, swallowing, everything. And, that my body can feed her. It's just so crazy to think about.

And, then I started thinking about Adam and Eve. What must it been like when they had their first baby? Have you ever thought about that? I mean, they had never seen a baby human before. There had never been a pregnancy before. How frightening. No pregnancy tests, so Eve must of just started getting bigger in the stomach and then began freaking out? What the heck is going on? Right? And, no doctors. How many times did I freak out over different pregnancy symptoms. Wondering if they were normal? Did I have them with my other pregnancies? And then, to go through labor without even knowing that it was going to happen? To just have a baby come out? Do you think God walked her through everything? Told her that she could breastfeed? And, how did she know to breastfeed exclusively? When to introduce food into the baby's diet?
I guess when I feel completely inept and have no clue to what I'm doing, I think of how Eve must have felt, and I feel a tad bit better! I feel a tiny bit sad for Sahara at times since she is my guinea pig and I truly feel like I am experimenting everything on her, but it can't be nearly as bad as Eve's first! I mean he was really the first baby/guinea pig.

When I see these big eyes staring at me, trusting me with their lives, (not that they have much choice!), I feel a little overwhelmed. But also incredibly happy. To know that these little girls are mine to take care of, provide for, teach, love, and protect is a beautiful honor and privilege. I just wish they would stay little!