Do people remember? We remember every.single.day. And, it still is an aching hurt. I have had many people refer to Isla as the second born, or speak as tho we only have two. When this first started happening, I spoke to Ja about it. Do I say something? I didn't want to make the conversation awkward, or make them feel bad that they had forgotten. But, could I remain silent? Ja said that she is not their burden to carry. She is ours. We remember. And, will remember forever. Whenever we are asked, it's three kids we have. But, I wish they would remember. I wish they would never forget. Because I guess in a small way, I am terrified that in a few years, I will be the one to forget.
My heart aches for you, my baby Ry.
xoxo Mama
I don't think a mother could ever stop missing one of her children...that just wouldn't be natural. You will never forget. I cannot imagine what your heart feels. It would be very hard to hear others refer to Isla as your second because you know that she is not. I think with things like this one can only charge it to their head, and not their heart (in other words, their hearts still care...but, their heads sometimes forget that you have 3 daughters). You are such a sweet mama. How lucky all THREE of your girls are to have your heart.
ReplyDeleteYou will never forget mama! She is part of your heart forever and always will be part of your family! Don't ever stop talking about her, keep her alive with your love. I love the idea of having the girls hold a picture of her in your family photos. She will be with all of you always and someday you will all be together again.
ReplyDeleteO Cade, we will NEVER forget.
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